OKAY!!!

Hmm i guess you're right...
I've just been told that i just should be happy to be away from rainy, grey, cold Denmark!
And you're right, i should, and I am... it was just that Playa del Ingles, was not really that great!
Anyway... i start working tonight at 18... and then tomorrow morning at 900 we'll depart from Las Palmas!!! so just a quick "see you"
Can't hardly wait to go back at sea... mmm nice! sailing... aaahh
take care and have fun!
*Ninon

Gran Fu*ç%&$ Canary!!!

Bvadr... oh mymymy... I've only been here for a few days, it's not even high season... but it's absolutely horrible!!! i really don't like this place!
well anyway apart from me being in a really shitty mood right now, i'm all good! Mentally preparing for the coming crossing... makin gsure I have enough cigarettes, english tea... a friend taught me to only drink Tetley's and since there's a zillion brits coming down here, when they want a break from rainy old England, i bought it at the supermarket! not all is bad down here...
anyway actually i don't have much to say... as mentioned very early in this post, i'm in a shitty mood, so i think i'll find my bed and musicthingy and see if i can get some sleep!
Oh by the way, i was driving in the mountains today... Crazy!!! but so much fun, at least for me, i'm not so sure that my 2 passengers felt just the same... but i liked driving in the mountains (actually there's only 1, so i guess i was driving on the mountain... went to Las Palmas to do some shopping, didn't buy a thing, got semi-depressed about the sizes... waste of time i know...
well i was on my way to bed... oh and 1 last thing, i got my ticket from Surinam to Mexico city! the most outrageous itinerary! I'll be flying from Paramaribo in Surinam to Port of Spain on Trinidad, from there to Miami, Florida and then finally i'll get on a plane that lands in Mexico City... craazy! it will take me more than 14hours, see that doesn't make much sense to me...!
Now it's really time to go, i hear my bed calling!!!
laterrrr *Ninon

Trains...

Well eh here I am, sitting in the train, 2,5hours to go... what to do?i was looking at people... not much fun today, normally i can easely entertain my self for quite some time by just looking at people, listening to their concersations and making up stories about them, where they're going, who they are and how they are as persons. Not today, today all the "channels" are closed, i don't get anything from anybody, and actually i don't really care, i just want this train ride to pass A.S.A.P... now is the time where i wish i had a car... There's plentyof reasons why i don't have a car, and why i shouldn't get one, but right now i wish i had one... I love driving, far away if possible, especially at night... oh well *snap outta it* i don't have a car, it's not even dark yet, and news flash i'm sitting in a train... to make it even worse, in the "Family wagon" or what ever you call it... so eh a lot of mall noisy children, i usually don't care too much about it. I think the parents are more annoyed than me... Well if it would be considered okay for an adult to scream and shout because of long, boring train rides i would do the same...! what would be people do about it??? probably not much, maybe look at me strangely as if I needed medical assistance, but I don't think znybody would actually ask me, if i was okay or if they could do anything to help me out of my misery.... maybe they would find another place to sit, and secretly blink at eachother, whispering "what a loony", but i guess nobody would take 5minutes to talk to me.
I remember one train ride very clearly, a day i'll never forget. I was sitting in a train from Graasten to Copenhagen, only an hour earlier i was told that my younger brother had died. I was sitting in this train, crying my eyes and my heart out for about 5hours, randomly talking on the phone, or crying, screaming and explaining somebody in the other end what had happened. I remember there must have been at least 5-7 other persons sitting pretty close to me... One of them, a middle-aged woman, sat right across me for 5hours and not even looking at me... she did every thing she could to pretend i wasn't there... i've rarely felt so alone and alienated. surrounded by strangers who all work so hard to pretend you're not there... did i break the unwritten rule of not showing feelings in public spaces??
mmm oh well i gotta go... i'm almost there... jubiii
*Ninon

Some bonus info...!

I thought i would add this too my blog, actually it's a profile, but eh it's kind of a indication of what i'm made of... i think?


In my short life I've...
Seen "the Forbidden City" in Beijing,
Touched a dolphin in the wild,
Build a snowman in the mountains of Norway,
Been to Carneval on Trinidad,
Went to school in Venezuela,
Crossed the Atlantic ocean on a fullrigger (i'm leaving in less than a week for what will be my 6th Atlantic Crossing)
Read loads of books,
Seen Ben Harper live and cried,
Met a guy who i believed was the love of my life,
found out he wasn't,
Buried my father,
Seen my sister turn 18,
Been at a baseballgame in NYC,
Had a drink on Bourbonstreet in New Orleans,
Seen the sun rise over Copenhagen,
Been swimming in the middle of the Atlantic,
Spent a new years eve on Cap verde,
Had Ice cream in Napoli,
Had a summer fling in Barcelona,
Been snorkeling with a Barracuda,
wished upon a shooting star,
Taken away sails in a storm in the North sea,
Walked 25km in the rain on the Azores to find a dry spot,
Spent christmas in Portugal,
Seen a man get killed in a hit'n'run,
Heard the grass grow,
Went to Sheffield to see Red Hot Chillipeppers live,
Seen Jack Johnson Live in Wales (of all places...),
Seen a Ferrari on Kurfurstendamm in Berlin,
Heard the F1 cars in Monaco,
Been lobsterfishing with the locals on Tobago,
Climbed the rigging to be first to see land,
"drowned" in mud on Roskilde festival,
been a bit depressed 'cause life didn't turn out the way I hoped,
seen sea turtles,
seen snow in Grand Canyon,
searched high'n'low for licorice in South America,
Been at anchor in a Mangrove forrest,
Been sunbathing on "my own" tiny island,
Eaten snake in china,
Stood on the great chinese wall,
Been dancing barefooted under a palmtree,
Seen whales,
Seen familymembers get sober after many years of drinking,
worked with "trouble" kids,
visited people in jail,
had friends in refugee camps,
Flown over the Everglades,
Been to Disneyland (horrible place),
seen Pulp Fiction too many times,
Made friends from all over the world,
Been crazy in love,
Had my share of problems,
Traded fresh fish for baked beans (to everyody's content)
Walked around Amsterdam high on (surprisingly not weed) life,
Seen the sun rise over Mississippi,
Seen Alhambra,
Seen Rolling Stones Live,

I've seen a lot, I've been many places, but still i haven't done or seen anything... there's so much more to se and to do. I can hardly wait to get out there...Coming up is an Atlantic crossing, a few months in "tha Carib", Mexico, the East coast of the US and before returning home, another Atlantic crossing... Should i mention that this is all work, I don't get to decide where to go or when to go there... many of the places i've been has been job related. so eh I'm not sure if you can call me lucky. But it's true, i'm living my dream... sometimes lacking bits'n'pieces to make it absolute... but I'm not complaining. Even though my life hasn't always been this easy, i've made the right choices for my self... very early on i decided, that if i wanted the most out of my life, if I wanted to be happy, i had to take charge and not just go with the flow... won't even think about where i would've been now if hadn't done that... And eh it's not always as easy as i may make it seem like, i too have my moments where nothing is right and where it feels everything and everybody is only working against you. Somehow i manege to dig myself out of that black hole...
But i'm stronger and more optimistic than ever.... for somewhat odd reason!
oh my my my...
Life is beautiful... The world is my playground!!!

Hmmm

*Sigh* babysitting my 3 year old cousin... he was not to hapy about it, but now he's fast asleep! nice and quiet, mmm candles and tea... almost alone! the tv is making noises in the background, there's an election in a few days... it drives me crazy! all those politicians are talking blahblah with no exception!! some times I'm embarrased to be danish, oh my god, we are getting so narrowminded and hateful... what happened? where did everything go wrong? *sigh* oh well in my naitivity i hope and believe, that if i behave diffently i can change, maybe not the world, but hopefully my surroundings... well it might not work but i'll try!!! I'm not a happy hippie or anything, i just hope for a more peacefull world!
wouldn't that be nice...???

Getting Started!!

Hmm i don't really know how to get started, but eh... i'll give it a try...

A little bit about me... just to get things started...

i thought this would be so easy, but eh guess not really...

I work on a fullrigged sailing ship as a quartermaster, and honestly?
I love my job...
i work 2months, then I'm off for a month.
right now I'm at home, it's late at night and i probably should be sleeping... but eh i love the nights... the hours between midnight and the first daylight are my favorite time a day, i love being home alone at night, just goofing around... listening to the nightradio, drinking seriuos amounts of tea, drawing things that nobody will ever see, writing long letters, smoking cigarettes, thinking... speaking of tea, be right back, i'll just put the keddle on...! ah nice cup of Tetley's (a british friend of mine introduced me to Tetley's, now I'm addicted) it's now 330 in the morning... the city is so quiet, it's dark, a few candles, fresh cup of tea, alone... uh i love being alone... not all the time of course, but when ever i get home from work i really need to be just me! i usually spend a lot of time on my own, what i really like is to go for a long walk around the dity and then after some hours of walking meet up with a good friend... my mind is so much clearer, and i can better listen.... I'm not the best listener in the world, but i'm working on it. It's just that whenever people tell me something i've usually experienced something similar or heard a story about someone, and it's not because i don't want to listen, i think i just want to let people know, that whatever problem they might have, they're not alone.
Luckily i have good friends who can tell me to shut up every once in a while...
oh well it's running late and i have to get up early tomorrow to meet a good friend who finally got a chance to get out the house for a few hours without her sons, they are absolutely adorable, both of them, but it's also nice just to be with her. i invited her to lunch, to give her a break!! she really deserves it... she's such a wonderful mother and i wish that more children where like hers... but every supermom needs a break! one day when i get my own kids... shouldn't go there... before i get kids i should find somebody to have them with and quit sailing... not something that's gonna happen anytime soon i guess! 'cause as i said i love my job, and who want's to be with somebody who's away 8months a year?? yeah well for some it might seem like a brilliant plan... but eh then they're not for me anyway! not that you should be together 24/7 but still more than 4months a year prefereably (can't spell that word, sorry)
oh well my tea is almost done, i'll smoke just one more cigarette before i go to bed... tell people on Flork that i'm trying to write a blog. then go to bed!!!
hehe just looked at Flork... hehe got a message! nice!!! i'm not totally alone...
never lonely, just alone... mayor difference...
Oh well it's now 4 o'clock... nightynight and sleep tight!
uh all of a sudden it wasn't that difficult, once I got started... Many Nice...
oh well G'night!